Blasian girl

OMG its my bday once again!!!! I still cant believe im almost 30! geez...time flies!!!! 

 

I feel like crap! lately ive been really down... this is the reason why it sucks to be so transparent cuz ppl notice no matter how much u try to pull a smile on your lovely face... theyd think im trying hard to hide it when its not working... ...*sigh*... i hope im not on my way to depression again but from the looks of it... i think im almost there... as in 90% there... im crying a lot too... without valid reasons just lame reasons... loneliness, i hate this empty feeling... i dunno how did i get here... cant even focus with studies, im trying, i shouldnt give up the fight, but sometimes i feel like giving up, dunno... sometimes i like to think that maybe i really need a visit to the psychologist...  maybe not.... maybe im just overreacting... whatever, i just feel like letting it out here.... ive been lazy to write in my paper diary again. :(

here's one of my fave songs: maybe tomorrow

I really dunno what the hell is wrong with me!!!! but seriously it happened when i went back to work after being away for so looooong... exactly a whole month, im telling u this is gonna be the last time I am leaving work for 30days unless I go back to pinas cuz in that case itll be different... or maybe not? anyway, whatever I am trying to say here doesnt make any sense its just that I feel the need to talk to someone and aside from this blog ive got no one to talk to.... how sad isnt it? so here i am....  babbling... bla bla bla bla... blablabla blaaaaaaa....

Recently, i just started online school (child education 3yr course) and as usual my catalan course (level 3) also, aside from work Ive been busy looking for a new place to live... yes, uve read it right and I kid u not, I am tired of sharing! and of course jobhunting while at it, I think i am ready to leave that work, I cant deny that Ive learned a lot but its not the same anymore! 2 workmates already left to a different place and I dont like my new team at all, cuz theres this super old woman who shouldnt be there, i know i shouldnt talk like this but ehhhh i am really pissed off! >_<

Also, ive been sharing the flat with my 2 roomates for a whole year and I dont get a lot of privacy these days, theres this spanish saying: "too much trust is disgusting" it sounds much better in spanish though, gahhhh how I wish I could afford a small flat here in the city but I guess I'll have to settle for living in a nearby village, so far, Ive been checking out  manresa cuz I have a friend who lives there and shes paying a small amount that i could afford so shes helping me check some apartments, I still dunno... I mean, yes I am SO ready to move out but... I dont like villages! theyre oh so boring unlike here in the city anytime anyplace everythings here! its sooo different!!!! plus u'll have to depend on the train cuz Im not planning to buy any car in the near future, but then again I will be on my own.... which is what I really want, right? heck, thats my priority! so now to cheer me up I must think about going shopping at ikea to buy my own stuff! :P exciting! u know what, i should go to ikea one of these days but first i gotta make a list! :P yeah what did u expect? LOL

Of course u must be thinking that I complain a LOT but why the hell I dont do anything to solve my situation... well, yes Ive been submitting a whole bunch of resumes online and its a matter of time, I dont care if I have to go back to waitressing again as long as the pay is good and the schedule is kinda nice so I'll still have time to study in the afternoon, I could work in a coffeeshop, starbucks? haha, we'll see!

so far here are the things that I might do tom:

grocery shopping
clean the kitchen
saw uniform pants
send coat to drycleaners
buy black ink
print more resumes
check that cheap store called tati
exercise
drink 1lt water
homework ca
homework ce
watch a movie
read
call julia

ok thats it for now but im pretty sure theres more so ill add them here later while i cross out the rest ;)

Bona nit! Z__z

22 lyrics
Allen, Lily

When she was 22 the future looked bright
But she's nearly 30 now and she's out every night
I see that look in her face, she's got that look in her eye
She's thinking how did I get here and wondering why

It's sad but it's true how society says her life is already over
There's nothing to do and there's nothing to say
'Til the man of her dreams comes along
Picks her up and puts her over his shoulder
It seems so unlikely in this day and age

She's got an alright job but it's not a career
Whenever she thinks about it, it brings her to tears
'Cause all she wants is a boyfriend, she gets one night stands
She's thinking how did I get here, I'm doing all that I can

It's sad but it's true how society says her life is already over
There's nothing to do and there's nothing to say
'Til the man of her dreams comes along
Picks her up and puts her over his shoulder
It seems so unlikely in this day and age

OMG where did all the month go????? where where where???? Ive had a whole friggin' month for vacation and I still cant believe that its all gone!!!! im so depressed!!!!!! :( boooooo! I dont wanna go back to work! seriously, I was getting used to it! u know, just stay at home and do nothing but eat and sleep! haha.. I really need to marry a rich man! :P

Anyway, I dunno where to start! everything went by sooo quickly! I shouldve written everything in a diary or something, haha... so yeah, im gonna write a quick recap I might edit it from time to time cuz thats the way I blog I keep on editing and adding new stuff cuz theres a lot going on in my head so just come back to my page after a week to read everything, hehehe ^_^

August 3 - It took me 12hrs to go back home! it was unbelievable cuz I used all kinds of transport! seriously If i knew that it was gonna be like that I wouldve chosen the train cuz u just sit there for 11hrs! haha, so yeah I flew to VLL to be with my family and it turned out that the same day my parents flew to this island called tenerife it must be their fave place cuz they seem to go back there a lot now! so I didnt have a chance to see my parents and so I spent a lot of time with the sis and the lil doggy :)

Actually, I didnt do much at home aside from cleaning, organizing and throwing away stuff that i didnt know existed! and we watched a lot of movies and ate ice cream all day everyday, yeah pigged out a LOT like there no was tomorrow! I would go to the supermarket and grab all the yummy stuff and yes, i didnt feel guilty cuz I did a lot of walking over there, theres no metro in that city and i hate the bus cuz its sooooo slow, besides walking is good! :P

to be cont.

What haven't you said that you wanted to today?

Well, I wanted to borrow my roomate's suitcase for my vacay but I dunno whats wrong with me... perhaps feeling awkward and a bit shy? so this only means,...i will end up buying a new one... I just know it.

Hello hello hello!!! ^_^

Summer is finally here! What are your plans?

1. enjoy the beach

2. eat a lot of sugarless ice cream :P

3. work out!!!!

4. bike riding

5. paint my bedroom

6. explore the city

7. go home to see my family :)

8. visit my bff in romania

9. study/read/practice catalan

10. find a summer bf ;) haha JK!

You have four unexpected guests showing up for dinner in less than an hour, you haven't been to the store in days, and you want to impress them with a delicious meal. What do you serve them?

id call the chinese resto! :P

Show us something you could never give up.

ferrero rocher